sigh

todayyyy.....
i was figthing with my mom over something ridicolous..
really,, it's small problem but unsolved until today...
why?? you want to fucking know why??


well... becouse i don't have a job. simple. hah..
it's troublesome,, u know that..
tried to apply to many companies but didn't work until know..
how can i go around, pointed at other people and  blame it to them?? who AM I??!!
yet my mom,, i dunno may be she don't understad or she didn't care enough.she always. FUCKING always remind me to get a job.

okay,, i wish it can be that simple eh,, if ur mom want u to get a job and then u get it.
well,, other people might see, mom just worried over me.. but seriously.. i've tried.!
did u belive that i'm happy with my current situation??!! hell NO!! bloody fucking NO!!
sigh.... i don't wanna figth anymore...

tomorrow,, mom will bring my CV to her frends.. hope it's okey.. and turn well..
i'm sending my application letter through email to some well known company.. hope its turn okay as well..

GOD,, please for the sake of Ruki's 100.000 followers, for my own sake, my mom's.
for the sake of ramadhan...
please give it to me.. job where i can make a good living and happy doing it.
i'm begging you... m(_ _)m
100.000 followers amen to my wish...